Rayma's
Story
Hello. My name is Rayma and I am 25.
I was 19 when I unexpectedly got pregnant. I was terrified. I still lived at home
with my parents and the guy I was dating and pregnant to was in a rehabilitation
center for alcohol and drugs. I had no one to turn to. He was gone and I knew
I couldn't go to anyone in my family. I knew how they all felt about abortion.
My boyfriend insisted I get one done. I didn't know what I wanted. I knew we were
not able to care for a child financially, physically or emotionally. I also knew
I did not want to bring a baby into this world under the conditions that I was
in with the father being an alcoholic. I made a few appointments and ended up
canceling a few too! I finally felt as though I had no other choice but
to go through with it. On August 8, 1992, which is my sister's birthday, I had
my abortion. I felt so alone, I did not have a very good support system. Reading
other woman's stories it all comes back to me. Now married and the mother
of two gorgeous children, I sometimes wonder what my child would be like had I
not had it done. Or how my child would interact with my other two. I even wonder
what he/she would look like. I know that I did the best thing I could but it is
still very hard at times to sit and think about it. My husband is wonderful. I
shared my experience with him. He is my support system now!! I try not to dwell
on the past but try to think about my future with my husband and children and
I think I'm OK. Rayma
September 1998
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