Priscilla's Story

Hi, my name is Priscilla & I am 22 years old. Yesterday I found out I was 7 weeks pregnant..

I made my appointment in hopes that I would get a negative result back, & I would go on with my life. But I didn't turn out that way. In the past 3 & a half years there were several times I thought I could've been pregnant, but turns out I wasn't. For awhile I thought I couldn't get pregnant? Guess I was wrong?

The doctor came in, told me it was a definite positive. Those were words I was not expecting to hear at all! She didn't know my situation, & I was about to tell her, it was too embarrassing. She told me I could go through with the pregnancy & continue my pregnancy at their clinic... or TERMINATE the pregnancy... wow I can't believe I (ME) am even considering this option?!

I am PRO-LIFE! It's not that I don't want my unborn child, I would love to have him/her, it's just everything in my life is messed up & nothing is right. The timing is all wrong for me to be pregnant right now.

I have a soon to be 4 year old son whom I love with all of my heart. He lives with his father 20 mins away. I see him every weekend. I have nothing for my son right now. No home, no money. I have no job, I'm not in school... I have nothing?! His father is giving him everything I don't have (right now) & another child is not a good idea at all.

I hate more of the fact that I have been too careless about my choices lately ... which ended up me being pregnant. I have been partying too much & not giving a care about what I've been doing. What's embarrassing about my situation is I'm not sure who the father of my unborn child is? I didn't ever think (I) would be one of "those" girls who ends up pregnant & doesn't have a clue who the father is! But I am.

It hurts to think of all the damage I've caused already to my unborn child with all the partying I've done. I have one more day to make that phone call to set an appointment to "take my baby away". I really wish I had someone there with me, but I can't tell anyone, they wouldn't understand. So now I have to go through a scary, painful procedure, ALONE. I can't stop crying. I don't know what to do. 80% of me wants my child, and the other 20% doesn't because I don't know who the father is, caused damage to my baby by partying, and have NOTHING??

I better end this now before it turns into a book.

I hope it somehow helps somebody by reading this? I know reading a few of other women's stories did for me.

Priscilla
2010