Ginger's Story

Why me?

I guess I have asked myself that a million times over and over, why me, why was I put in that situation? I was 17 dating a guy who turned out to be the world's biggest jerk, I was IN LOVE though, I was blinded by his promises, his lies, his pleas...

I found out I was pregnant, and called him RIGHT AWAY. He was shaking when I told him, we met at college, were instantly attracted to each other, and NEVER thought we would be dealing with this...

I told my mom, she was so ANGRY and HURT, and she told me my only CHOICE was abortion, and my boyfriend said the SAME thing... I was mortified...

My boyfriend made promises of marriage in the future, and all sorts of things that I wanted to hear, he told me how he couldn't tell his family... they would disown him... well TOUGH... I had to tell my mom and my family... but blindly I said "Oh don't tell them then," what a MISTAKE that was...

We made the appointment, it seemed like a dream when we were there, there were people protesting outside, they tried to grab me, they were throwing plastic fetuses at me... I was scared... I went in, it was a nightmare, my mom had to go with me because I was under age... we brought the wrong forms... ugh... she left and said she would fax them... they said fine, so I talked to a counselor who asked if someone was making me do this... I wanted to SCREAM YES!!! I told her what she wanted to hear...

Next they did a ultrasound, and couldn't find a baby... so they sent me home...and we rescheduled for a week later... I couldn't believe this, I would have to go all over again... why me, I asked myself?

We go back, this time I am NUMB, I am just pushing it all out of my mind, they do the ultrasound, they see a baby, I am 6 weeks, they do the procedure, I have two wonderful nurses in there, who talk to me and make me feel so comfortable at this terrible time! I go to recovery, where women are crying and some are sick, some are just laying so still...

I get to go home, my boyfriend goes home with me, stays for about a half hour, makes a phone call and says he needs to go... I have never to this day heard from him ever again... all his promises... GONE... all his LIES, that made me feel so horrible... I couldn't imagine this... again I ask myself...WHY ME???

I feel good about my decision to have a abortion, because 5 months after that procedure, I met the man of my dreams, the man I married... but I wish I would have made the decision for the abortion MYSELF, I had it made for me... and it took a long time for me to come to term with the decision that was made for me, I now have 2 beautiful children and I am pregnant with my third... my life is wonderful, I am still missing that little piece of my heart, but I know that I made the right decision!

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