Caryn's Story

I am 27 years old and today I had my third abortion. The first one I had was when I was 14. There was no doubt in my mind that I wanted to abort my child. I was so very young..a child myself. The second time I became pregnant, I was 19 going on 20. I was still quite young and immature..I was torn this time about aborting or keeping the baby. My father convinced me abortion was the best option. That time I had a lot of emotional consequences. I swore I would never abort again.

I have been seeing my boyfriend for about six months now..and 2 weeks ago found out once again, I was pregnant, we were using birth control. I couldnt believe it. Again I was in this prediciment. I am older now..and live on my own..but my boyfriend was adament that we were not ready for a child. I know there was a lot of factors involved..but I felt if we worked on it together..we could do it. He unfortunatley wanted nothing to do with the pregnancy. Although he knew where I stood..he insisted I abort again. I truly felt so horrible. i didnt want an abortion at all..but I couldnt bear the thought of raising the child on my own either. The timing of the pregnancy would be hard enough to get through..let alone not having my partner by my side.

So again I made the decision to have an abortion. I was sick about it. I know it is going to take me a really long time to recover emotionally from this. I honestly cannot see a relationship with my boyfriend and I continuing. I feel so much bitterness and resentment toward him. I believe it will be very hard for me to be involved in a relationship again. My life is forever changed.

Caryn
March 2007r