Shana's Story

In my family, everybody's pro-life, and have the children to prove it. As far back as my great-grandmother, every woman in the family has had their first child before their 17 birthday, except for my mother, who had hers on her 17th birthday. So far, I've been the one to break the cycle... here I am 8 months from 18, and I haven't even been pregnant. That is, until I got engaged.

Since my fiance popped the question, we've been having unsafe sex. Call me romantic, but I plan to spend the rest of my life with this man, and I think condoms lessen the emotion of sex. Well, its been about 2 weeks since we got engaged, and my period is was due 2 days ago. I don't know if thats early enough to determine pregnancy, but I plan to take a pregnancy test in about 2 weeks.

Now, abortion has been my first and only option since I was 10 years old, when my sister had her first child. She just recently had her second and I keep having thoughts about maybe wanting to keep my child if in fact I am pregnant. But I have a very strict and plotted life plan, and kids don't enter it for another 8 years.

I want to have a car and a house and a good job...... none of which I have right now. And having already discussed abortion with my fiance, he is greatly against it. But I just know that if I am pregnant, I'm going to have the abortion. I hate to keep something like that from him, but I don't want to lose him, I love him so much, and he may be too angry over it. And of course, I could only tell my mother, because she's the only one who would understand in my family, on account of the fact that she told me anything I chose she would be behind 110%.

After reading the stories here, I know that so many people have different thoughts and feelings about it, but one main thing is certain, the only person who can choose and me, and I have every right to do what I feel is best. Thank you for your support, tho you may not know you've done it.



February 12, 2007

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