Hi, my name is Pamela, I am 20 and
I just found out that I am pregnant. Four days ago I did a home test and it was
positive. Next day I went to the clinic to get one, and it was positive too. They
made me a pelvic exam and they told me I am 5-6 weeks far. I started crying. I
have always said that if I got pregnant I would get an abortion, and in fact i
have an appointment for one in 6 days.
At first I didn't want to tell my
boyfriend because I love him and I thought he would be against abortion because
he already had a daughter. Then I realized that I couldn't take all this pain
in my own, it's his baby as much as it is mine, and I need his support more than
At first I thought about what would be good and what would be bad
about having this baby. Bad: I cannot support him financially, I would have to
leave school, and because I would have to work I wouldn't have time to take care
of him. As a second point, I should say that my mother is a single mother and
I know how hard it has been financially and emotionally to have me without a partner
next to her. I don't want the same thing to happen to me, whenever i have a child
I want someone to be next to me when the baby gets sick, when my child learns
how to walk, when he has his first football game or she has her first dancing
recital. The day I have a child I want to offer him a family and security, something
that I didn't have. I really want my child to learn the word "daddy"
and know what it means to have one, not like me that I learned the word "biological
father" before "daddy."
Good: Hey, having a baby is most
women's greatest dream (just that you expect this to happen in other conditions).
Making this decision has been hard but I think I am doing the best, I really
hope I am. The only thing that keeps me on going is how my boyfriend is supporting
me through my decision. I am really scared about feelings of regret that I may
have after the procedure, the physical pain, and about losing my boyfriend when
I need him the most.
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