Mandy's Story

Well i came accross your site and i thought if i share my story it may help me to make the hardest decision i have ever had to make in my life.

well im 30 years old and married with 5 wonderful children and i consider myself to be one of the luckiest people alive to have my children and have allways been against abortion and thought it terrable but now i realise that it is sometimes the only thing that some girls feel they can do.

well when i was 15 i found i was pregnant we had been together for awhile and there was no doubt in my mind i was keeping the baby no matter what. luckily my mum and my partners family all stood by us and gave us a lot of support.

when at 18 i was pregnant with my 2nd child i was overjoyed and went on to have my 3rd at 21 it was a struggle but i was happy my family was complete.

then when my youngest was 4 i found i was pregnant again for three days i cried as it meant that i had to give my job up and other sacrifices! when my child was born and i first held her i was overwhelmed with guilt for crying and decided that i wouldnt go through that again so when she was 6 months old i had a tubal ligation so i thought i was safe from thet happening again!! untill i found i was pregnant almost a year later. i was shocked and didnt know how i felt about this untill 10 days later and i started to bleed when i had ascan at the hospital and was told everthing was ok. i cried tears of joy so then i knew just how i felt

now there is a really good chance thet i could be on my own with my kids and although its a little daunting i know ill be fine and manage ok but i just found out im pregnant again. i havnt told my husband and i know thats wrong but i know ill have no choice but to keep the baby as he is against abortion. but the thought of having another baby to contend with is tearing me apart and i feel really guilty and i know i wont ever forgive myself and i just dont know what to do.

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