*Kaila's Story

I was confused. I was a senior in high school and I had my dream guy. Everybody said " we woud get married", when I would hear that I would get so happy. I could picture us growing old together.

We had been together for about one year. Our relationship was not stable at all, we would break up for two months and then get back together; it happened continuously.

Finally, it happened. I got pregnant in January. I was so mad at myself. I didn't know what to do, my mom was going to kill me. After I told him that I was pregnant he was so happy. I couldn't understand what there was to be happy about, I mean both of our lives were going to change. I finally told my mom, she was more understanding that I thought she would be.

Well, suddenly my dream guy turned out to be more like a nightmare. He suddenly didn't want me to go to school anymore. He threw away all my college applications because at college there are guys and I wasn't allowed to see any guys except for him. He started telling me that he was going to take me to court if I had the baby because I had said "that the baby was going to live with me." We were fighting over the name and religion basically we fought about anything possible.

One Monday I was talking with my mom and we decided what would be best for me. So I made an appointment to have an abortion. After that I never talked to the guy anymore, I know that what I did was for the best, but sometimes I wonder what it would have been like.

06 Oct 1999

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Pregnancy is truly a fork in the road of life. Choose to have an abortion and you will never know what the pregnancy would have turned out like. Choose to give birth and you will always be a parent. Choose adoption and you will always wonder if you should have kept the baby.

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