I still can't believe it happened to
I was just 16. I am 16 now. I always would tell my friends that I would
have an abortion if I was to get pregnant. But I wasn't having sex then.
boyfriend and I had been going together for about 5 months when we first had sex.
A little after a year of going together I found out that I was pregnant. Surely
not me!? I was a great student, well known, involved in a lot of activities such
as choirs, plays, musicals and student government. How?
I still remember
the night. My parents were out of town and I was staying at his house. His parents
didn't mind. I had been thinking I was pregnant for a while because of vomiting
and stomach problems. I was laying on the floor while he was on the computer.
I just asked him if we could use condoms from then on and he asked if he thought
that I was pregnant. I said yes.
He took me to get a test. We went back
to my house since no one was there. I remember so clearly looking down at the
test a seeing a the beginning of a second pink line form. I walked out of the
bathroom and just looked at my boyfriend. He kept asking me if I was but I couldn't
answer. I was trying not to cry.
So he ran in the bathroom and looked for
himself. He walked out and held me as we cried together. He kept asking me what
we were going to do. The first thing I said was have an abortion. I just had to
figure out how.
I ended up calling me older sister in Knoxville. I told
her and and she worked with me and we tried to figure out what do. I went up there
a lot in about three weeks total. I was able to spend my spring break there. My
pregnancy had good timing. Everything was able to happen without my parents knowing.
I had to be at least 18 before I could have one in Knoxville. Otherwise I had
to have a parental consent. So my sister and had an idea to say she lost her drivers
license and me pose as her and get my picture made on a new one.
Everything was set to go. She would pay the $375 and I had an ID saying I was
23. I ended up getting one one Friday afternoon in April. (2 and a half months
later.) It wasn't as bad as I thought. The drug they gave me to alter my emotions
did wonders! I stayed with my sister for 3 days after I had an abortion. My boyfriend
had to go to a drumline trip to Ohio while I had the operation. They just sucked
it right out of me.
There was pain, physical and mental, afterwards. I
begged God for forgiveness and I think he granted me this. But now I have to forgive
myself. I still will get this discharge of weird stuff around my period. I am
afraid of a problem that might have happened to me. I never went back to Knoxville
for my 2 week check up. (I strongly advise that you do.)
But through all
the heart ache I have moved on in my life. I am now vice-prez at my school and
made the school's show choir. My boyfriend is still with me after a year and a
half. I think that whole helped our relationship greatly. He now treats me better
and is more loving and understandable. An abortion was the only option I had to
carry on a normal high school life. It was just right for me.
later I am still going on strong.Caroline
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with access to condoms at school do not have sex more often than those teens who
do not have access to condoms, according to a
new study by The RAND Corporation. The
study also found that when condoms were available at school, the number of students
who said they used condoms regularly rose from 37% to 50% for male students, and
from 27% to 32% for female students.